It's all about me, or is it?

Pain sucks! My knee pain has never been so bad and the pain pills do not or have not been helping much. *Sometimes* they work,  but most of the time, they do not seem to :(.  Tylonal and Aleve seem to work better, and they will kill my liver. I have some, supposable *great* pain pills, and they use to work. I've never over taken them, never been addicted to them. Only take 1-2 every few days, to months, to even up to a year between usage.

This really, really sucks. Not much else I can do. Especially with out insurance, can't even see a ortho doctor to see how bad my arthritis is :( or has gotten. I know it is really in my hips and knees for sure, and probably my back and feet. :(
I swear, once we get insurance, I am making a point to see an ortho doctor!! I can't live like this :(

So much has gone on in the past year. You would never believe me if I told you! OK I will tell you some of it...

I was so tired over the past 3-4 years, and in the past 2 years, it was so bad I was falling asleep behind the wheel, at work, at home, you name it, I'd fall asleep. I also had some intense memory loss.

Come to find out, I had an iron issue. The iron level was great, but how it worked was not. So, I went in for 14 weeks of transfusions June of 06'-July 06'.
Not to long after, I apparently got pregnant. However due to my low (part of my birth defect platelets), we had no idea until the day he was born, full term, 40 weeks+1 day. Aiden Christian Oveetuk H.S. came into the world as perfect as could be May 25, 2007. 7# 4oz and 21" long.
Sadly, whole giving birth (the actual day of), my sister's boyfriend whom I have blogged about before, took it upon himself to rob us yet again (he admitted to robbing us back in May 2006, to the tune of over $70,000).  He actually hit our apartment twice that weekend. First time he took my laptop and our xbox 360. Second time he was in for a surprise and I had friends staying there. He also was so kind to steal my husband's car and debit card 2 weeks before Aiden was born and stold MY car right from the hospital parking lot the Sunday after Aiden was born. Amazes me since he came to visit us the Saturday after Aiden was born (he was born on a Friday).

Even sadder, here we are, nearly a year later and he was arrested, let go, and has yet to pay us back or serve any time in jail. The police say they are watching him, but why? He admitted to everything and nothing was done. Of course, as always, my sister says he didn't do it. Since May 2007, he continues to cause havoc in everyone's live and make us feel like we're living in hell. I want to move back to Alaska, my husband does not.
Thanks to big buddy "Bri", we're in financial ruins, have lost pretty much all of our possessions, I am living in a constant state of depression and anxiety. I do not like even leaving my house.  People tell me to get over it, but he is a heroin addict and I do not trust him or his friends. People tell me if he's going to do it, he'll do it. And that is not acceptable to me.

Anyhow, I am currently a SAHM. I have been in Alaska, attending my Grandma's funeral and will be heading home here Friday. I can't say I am looking forward to it at all.

Hopefully I will check in more often. I do blog over at http://www.taeq.us/journal/  You have to log in to read hidden posts. Just let me know who you are or I may delete you. I worry my sister or who knows who might find my little safe haven.

I finally have photos to show off!

Big size of my user pic

We are going to try and do an intervention with my mom today. Get her some how committed. It *has* to be done. She is hallucinating and doing weird stuff. Granted this just started (we think) in the past week. She has talked about suicide (my sister kept that from me).
She had a bottle of ambien that got filled last week (not even a week ago). It's gone. 110% gone. We know she didn't sell them. (She also keeps ripping into my sister, who my mom says was suppose to get her refills... My mom HAS NO refills of anything. My mom keeps trying to get us to buy black market... forget it. She already looks like a Holocaust survivor... she had that stomach surgery done about six years ago or so? And then doing speed {I am guessing})  She had to have taken them. I think. BAD thing is, they do not help her sleep. We are wondering if it is causing the hallucinating. She also ripped her face to sh--. It looks like she was clawing at her face. I am *guessing* withdrawals of some kind. My sister says she thinks my mom had a breakdown. My aunt thinks like me, some kind of withdrawal. At this point she is needs help. SAD thing we've been trying to get her to a doctor at the VERY least.  She refuses to do it.
I just don't know. My aunt called around and it's going to be nearly impossible for us to get her committed here in AZ. I think it is stupid you can't get people the help they need! We can not get her to fly back to Alaska. I wish I knew someone who could give me concrete answers. I feel really sick over all of this. I am really worried about the next few days. Lord give me strength! My sister said to make sure I have taken my xanax and to bring extra as it is bound to be messy.
Sad thing is I slept like sh-- last night and it had nothing to do with this amazingly enough! Our cats decided all night to whine and scratch on doors and make noise. And by the time that stopped, alarms started going off starting at 4am. First one in our house, then a car alarm (more then once), and then my husband had 2 or 3 alarms set starting at 5:15 until 6:45. And they would go off right as I'd be drifting back off.

My sister gave me her old (May 2006) laptop. I need to get explorer to stop wigging out. I can't tell if it is a virus or what, but memory keeps jumping to 100% when I try and web. Driving me nuts. I've got tools to work on this computer and if I have to I will reformat but dog gone what a PITA!!

But I am tickled to have a laptop again! And it's a nice one. I am betting the screen is 17" :D Memory isn't THE Best but if I can get it working, I will upgrade the memory. It's even got a 75 gig hard drive.

The aunt from he-double hockey sticks came down. (To say I can not stand this women, well it is so much more. It stems from my child hood but got worse as an adult).  She didn't tell anyone she was coming. She came to check on my mom who isn't doing too well mentally or physically but my mom won't let us hospital or help her in any way. The only way we can help is if we find her drugs on the street which we refuse to do.
Her "buddy" who we think was supplying her, took over $5,000 (at least that, could have been more-- three times more, we're not positive) took off running last week. We have no concrete proof my mom is doing or buying drugs,  it's a hunch to say the least.  (This lady was so shady. Anytime we'd go to visit or pick up my mom, if this gal was over she'd take off running... literally!!). This freak called my mom this week. What a freaking looser!! Makes me so mad. Problem is we can not totally pin anything on her except my mom's word (like this gal kept trying to steal gift cards... pissed my mom off). This gal we know took my sister's kids toys. And $ would dissapear, good sums, and this gal was the only one who was over @ the time.
The big problem is, my mom would not move out of this hotel. We've tried. She won't do it. We told her we'd move her to a nicer hotel, to one of our homes, back to Alaska, whatever she wanted to get out of this place, but nope. She is fighting my aunt right now on moving. Not a pretty thing.  Guess I am glad it is my aunt and not us (this sounds bad, but we've been trying for over six months).
The whole thing is a mess and I am not a happy camper. As if I do not have enough stress in my life.

Are you a morning person or a night owl?

NIGHT thankyouverymuch. It's much easier for me to stay up late then get up early.

What's the last thing you crafted, constructed or created yourself?

I would say it would have been a photo collage. I am not really a crafty person. I did create these neat "charms" (aka photo tiles) back in March. I didn't get too far and I am hoping my buddy and I can get together and work on them again. I wish I had taken a photo. Somewhere I have one, well I did, before my old computer was stolen :(

So I thought I would jump in, make some extra cash by posting about advertising on blogs. So far this is my first post. I have read nothing but good things from other folks who have been writing posts for pay per post.
I think if you are a advertiser, you might advertise on blogs and we, the bloggers will surely post about your site or product.

Show us something with wings.